I hope it’s not misunderstood. I do love so much. I do care and love and want it so much. More than anything.
My heart is just worn down. My heart, my mind, and my body are so strained.
Why am I taking other people’s feelings into consideration? I remember things that were said doing past issues and arguments. I actually try to be aware of what I say and the impression of my actions.
I feel like other people say whatever nonsense they want after an issue has been resolved. ‘In sorry I did whatever, next time I’ll remember. I won’t do that anymore. I’m sorry, I’m didn’t mean to. I’ll work on it. I’m trying ’
But the next time a similar situation comes along……. it is all repeated. The same words and actions that hurt me before. The same things that made a past situation worse. Issue’s being handled the same way as before……
It’s not fair. And it’s not love.